“Just keep moving, just keep moving.”

I would be lying if I said I’d consciously kept this tidbit in mind during the last 5 years, but it’s been a subconscious effort nonetheless. Most of you know the story of what I describe as my post-college peril: some part-time work, two fantastic but unpaid internships, and cheap but deeply flawed housing. In the midst of it all were wonderful and supportive friends, but it was still hard to face when my future was an amorphous blob of which I could only see three months at a time.

Today, my life is a little less perilous, but the vagueness of the future persists. Two days ago, I was looking at a frighteningly open calendar and wondering… what’s next? Two days later, I’m happy to report I’ve lined up some solid work through the New Year. The catch? I will be working overnight shifts, and my life as I know it will change significantly (more musings on this in the future, I’m sure).

Now, usually, I’m not so won over by “motivational” blog posts, but given the timing, I’m compelled to share this bit of relevant wisdom which I stumbled upon today at Gigaom. On working in spite of not knowing, the author writes:

Perhaps the biggest part of it is learning to stay the course, even when the course doesn’t yet exist. There’s no path laid out ahead of you, and you’re learning to navigate as you go. Learn to keep going, in spite of not having clear directions. Create a plan you believe is most likely to succeed by studying the cues of those who have succeeded before you, but accept that you are forging a new path in many ways, so the answers may not always be immediately available.

I am now a year out from graduating from college, and from what I’ve seen, it seems many of my close friends and peers are freaking the f**k out. I’m freaking out, too — no doubt about it — but there’s a comforting solidarity in it all, this collective experience of not knowing. So be scared, freak out, cry, watch a whole lot of You’ve Got Mail, but keep on moving. If we just do that, I think we’ll be ok.

Let’s not attribute all of my happiness to this one occurrence; after all, it is temporary. I also love being a real person in the real world. I love living in DC. I love grocery shopping and cooking. And I love my big queen mattress/boxspring that sits on the floor of my subletted room.

Perhaps The Zombie’s “This Will Be Our Year” sums it up best. It’s bouncy, hopeful, and sugary sweet. This can be a sort of anthem for the year, perhaps. Enjoy.

I can’t emphasize how important this tour was to me in my outlook on the future. In the past week and a half, I’ve gone from zero post-graduation plans to 5 months worth of employment. Massive sigh of relief. While this isn’t the situation I had imagined for myself at age 21, I’m happy with it. In times like these, I forget what I really want. I tell myself that I’d rather get any job as long as it’s full-time and pays. After the NPR tour, I realize that’s a lie. I envy the security of jobs in consulting, for instance, but I know that I wouldn’t enjoy it. Even if this NPR high only lasts a few weeks, I’m so glad I felt it.

I have struggled with blogging for the past two weeks, because I’ve only wanted to talk about my perceived worthlessness. I know no one wants to read that, so please endure this paragraph. I, like many of my fellow 2009 graduates, are feeling like everything we’ve done for the past 8 years is meaningless. Should we have just tried to join the US Postal Service after high school? Those are some enviable salaries… and I only wish that was sarcasm! I don’t think anyone expects to literally be unemployable after 4 years of college, but this is what we face. This will be a fantastic story to tell in another 20 years after it’s all worked out, but it’s hard to see the hilarity when it’s all still happening.

Places I’ve found inspiration through it all? Housemates and friends. Professors that know my name. Videos of babies hula-hooping. I can’t put into words how meaningful it was for me to have a professor that expresses some level of caring about me as a student or, even better, as a person. It was almost shocking to me, but it has been a defining part of my undergrad experience.

I hope this didn’t come off as some kind of plea for pity. I meant it more to paint a picture of the world that lies before those graduating this semester. Let us be poor. Let us complain. Let us be bushy-tailed and bright-eyed about our aspirations. If you find yourself losing hope, go on a tour of something. A brewery, a museum, a network station, anything! We’re too young to give up already. One thing that you can expect of me in 20 years: I’m going to help the shit out of some poor, jobless college student. Hold on to your hats.

I’m on a blogging high right now, because Matt from You Ain’t No Picasso has just commented on the Touch My Clickwheel blog! More than likely, you’re not sharing in my enthusiasm. BUT for some perspective, realize that YANP was my first blog love, my first introduction to mp3 blogs, and the inspiration for the TMC blog. I don’t know much about Matt, YANP’s creator, but he’s my pseudo-anonymous peer role model. Was that too many adjectives?

I’m a Political Economy major with seemingly unrelated career aspirations, and blogging has kept my dreams close to mind. Hence my excitement when one of my favorite bloggers stumbles across my meager website.

At Georgetown, students perceived as ambitious are usually reaching for investment banking and finance… for Lehman Brothers, for Merrill Lynch, for AIG, etc. Idealists and dreamers are seeking their fortunes elsewhere in “less serious” fields. With the sudden collapse and rescue of the aforementioned companies, I feel reassured in pursuing my passions. There’s no guaranteed money anywhere anymore, so why not go for what I want?

To be fair, I’m writing this before my potentially epic job search, but I still feel excited about the journey ahead. Alright. I promise my next post will be… less hopeful? Well, I can’t promise. Until then…

It’s a bit chilly and I find myself pressing the Boost button on my heater constantly. It turns on automatically if it falls below 16 degrees Celsius (60.8 degrees Fahrenheit!), otherwise, you have to press a button every hour. That’s no good for me. I am intolerant of indoor temperatures below 65, but I suppose it’ll toughen me up a little. The weather is starting to cool down meaning that under no circumstances will I be dressing up and wearing skirts unless absolutely necessary. A friend of mine is in town from Oxford and he called me from a bar to ask me to meet up. I knew the bar was more bar and less pub (read: more classy, less casual), and pretty immediately turned him down. I’m willing to bear the cold for short walks to and from places. But for a half hour or more of transit? No. I’ll see him this weekend anyway; I’m not that mean or lazy.

Today, I have sustained myself on two TV dinners, a bowl of cereal, and the rest of a bag of crisps (chips). I chewed two pieces of gum as well. I love gum, but when I choose to chew it here, it’s a very conscious choice. “Will I eat soon and will I have to spit it out before it loses flavor? Do I need fresher breath? Do I really need to chew a piece now?” So… chewing two pieces today, in my opinion, was extremely extravagant. I’m living it uppppp. I finally did some work , probably the most consecutive hours of reading I’ve done in 5 months. Insane right? It’s still not the workload of Georgetown at all, but some of the material is more challenging. I think they might be on to something here. I’m getting smarter, presumably, by doing less work. Amazing. I can go rock climbing 2-3 times during the school week! Speaking of rock climbing, I broke in my new pair of shoes on Wednesday. I was a little timid wearing my own pair of shoes and even more timid about having my own chalk bag… so timid that I kept my chalk bag in my locker. It was a good day though and as usual, I have big, colorful bruises that indicate I’m more hardcore than I am in reality. Oh well.

I have an interview tomorrow for a job to make some extra cash. So if I don’t write about being employed within the next two weeks, it means I’ve not been hired. I’m excited for money, because then I can more guiltlessly do things that are fun. I want to go to concerts or something. The prices for shows are similar to U.S. prices, but then you multiply by the exchange rate of two and are instantly depressed. Alright. I need to work on an earlier bedtime. Good night.

Another frustration. I was on time, borderline late, for my Political Economy class this morning as well. My .95p fried egg roll somehow took 10 minutes to get to me and I was enraged and annoyed, but I won’t get into it. So I rush off to Peco and just like last time, every desk is occupied and people are sitting on the floor in the back. It’s ridiculous that they book classrooms where there are not enough desks for students. We’re not talking 1 or 2 desks short. We’re talking 10-15 desks short AT LEAST. I went into an empty classroom next door and dragged in a desk to an empty spot at the door. Other students were not so lucky and sat outside the door, unable to see the board, like I did last time. Others cursed, as I would too, when they saw the full classroom and just left in frustration. What the fuck, LSE? In infrastructure so weak that they can’t even plan out which classroom to assign for which class?

So as you can see, my experiences with this side of LSE have been unsatisfactory thus far. However, I don’t mean to say that my professors or class teachers don’t seem good. They are so far. It’s just that these fubars (you all know the acronym) are major ones and they should be corrected, not overlooked. They are an impediment to students learning AND it obviously favors wealthier students that can just buy books and be better off with less effort wasted on the frivolous search for books; it’s opportunity cost. I’m among those fortunate enough to be able to buy the books and man, I’m thankful for it; less time wasted.

While I said I’m fortunate enough to buy books, the same doesn’t apply for eating and feeling full. I’m Starvin’ Marvin over here, but testing out this new daily budget to see how it goes. I had a good, filling dinner, but it pretty much cost me my daily budget. So… I spent the day job-searching online. I’ve applied for three so far, and I’m crossing my fingers. Two are retail, which I’d prefer, and one is data entry. My hours aren’t flexible enough for anything real… plus I really don’t want to have to worry about business casual right now. So… cross your fingers for me. I need a job and I need it now. Cheers, as they say.

Oh. A happy thing. I finally have some cookware to work with!